Ever have roadblocks in your life?

I sure do. My struggle right now is support raising. My roadblocks are both mental (discouragement) and physical (the “no” word). Being missionary I have to raise my own support (funding) to stay in the missions field. My field is rural Washington State (8% churched) and I reach out to unchurched youth in our town of Arlington. Recently I’ve been promoted to director of our outpost and I’m now in charge of raising more funding.

Support raising has always been a faith thing for me. I do what I can, pray and watch God do the rest. And I can’t complain, I’ve seen God provide in so many ways for my family.

It’s just lately, I have a hard time remembering that. I’ve been out beating the pavement and been getting good responses from people I’m requesting for support, but they’re mainly “Yes, I want to support you, just not now.” People want to be apart of supporting our organization and believe in what we are doing. It’s just a matter of economics and people struggling right now. I had someone tell me last week, “I feel like the enemy is hitting [financially] people to prevent them from blessing the Kingdom through giving.”

My first response is “Oh great!”

Then I take a breath and look at my situation. What are the roadblocks telling me? I know I’m called to be here. I know this is where my family is supposed to be. My heart is so vested in this mission field. So what then? Right now for me, it’s relying on the Lord for provision. It’s praying and waiting. I just have such a hard time with that - the waiting part.

I have to remember that when I’m alone the roadblocks look much bigger. I lack the perspective to see past where I’m at. Especially when I’m walking down this road and I stumble upon this huge boulder impeding my path. All I can see is this boulder. I get frustrated when I realize that there’s nothing more I can do to move it. And as long at it’s there, I can’t continue forward. When I stare at it long enough I lose all perspective and hope. Then once I’ve run the gambit of frustration I realize that this burden isn’t mine and I need to hand it over to the Lord.

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